HERE I STAND STEPHEN W MyStoryUK “everybody has a story to tell”
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MyStoryUK StephenW “HERE I STAND”
POEMS HERE I STAND 3 BLESS YOU 4 WHY 6 LIFE 8 REJECTION 9 GO LOOK IN CORNERS 10 LET US ALL GIVE THANKS 13 MY LOVE FOR YOU 14 IT WOULD BE SO EASY 17
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HERE I STAND HERE I STAND IN THE LIGHT, BUT FEELING DARK, NOT IN THE SEA, THOUGH STILL LIKE A SHARK. I’M HUNTING HERE I’M SEEKING THERE LOOKING TO FIND VICTIMS EVERYWHERE. I ROAM AROUND IN EVERY PLACE WITH A TOOTHY GRIN UPON MY FACE. SO BE IT NIGHT OR BE IT DAY I CAN STILL FIND YOU ANYWAY. YOU CAN’T RUN OR HIDE FROM ME FOR I WILL SEEK YOU OUT JUST WAIT AND SEE. SO WHEN THE TIME COMES FOR YOU TO DIE JUST LOOK INTO MY ALL SEEING EYE. SO EVEN WHEN THE BLOOD IN YOUR VEINS AND HEART CEASES TO FLOW, I WILL HOLD ON TIGHT AND NOT LET YOU GO.
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BLESS YOU BLESS YOU FOR KEEPING YOUR FIRE IN ME WHEN I WAS OUT IN THE COLD. THANK YOU FOR STAYING WITH ME WHEN MY SOUL I HAD SOLD. LOOKING ANEW AT PEOPLE WHO I ONCE DID DESPISE NOW I SEE IN A DIFFERENT WAY THROUGH YOUR EYES. THE DEBT I OWE YOU I CAN NEVER REPAY, THAT IS TRUE, FOR SAVING ME ON THAT DAY I CALLED TO YOU. TO BE GIVEN THE CHANCE TO GO AND TELL ALL, “BE WISE IN GOD ABOVE NOT A DEVIL’S FOOL.” SO I WILL TRY MY BEST TO WALK WITH YOUR LOVE AND GRACE, TO SPREAD JOYFUL MESSAGES IN EVERY PLACE.
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UP THE MARKET
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WHY
WHY IS IT WHEN YOU ARE FEELING DOWN THAT PEOPLE WHO CARE GATHER ROUND? WHY WHEN YOU JUST WISH TO HIDE TRUE FRIENDS ARE ALWAYS BY YOUR SIDE? WHY IS IT WHEN YOURSELF YOU DO HATE SOMEONE IS AROUND TO SAY I THINK YOU’RE GREAT? WHY IS IT WHEN YOU NEED TO CRY A LOVING PERSON DOES NOT PASS YOU BY? WHY WHEN YOU WISH TO SCREAM AND SHOUT THEY SAY, “I DON’T MIND, JUST LET IT OUT”? WHY IS IT WHEN YOU ARE REALLY BLUE THAT PEOPLE SAY, “WE DO LOVE YOU”?
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WHY DON’T YOU ALL JUST GO AWAY “BUT ITS NOT CHANCE,” THEY DO SAY. WHY, WHEN YOU’RE NOT SURE OF WHAT TO DO, PEOPLE POINT OUT WHAT IS BEST IN YOU? WHY, WHEN WORDS WE DON’T WISH TO HEAR THAT THEY ARE SO CRYSTAL CLEAR? WHY DO PEOPLE CARE YOU SAY WHEN FROM THE PATH YOU STRAY? WHY DO OTHERS GLADLY TAKE ON THE TASK WHEN WE FIND IT SO HARD TO ASK? WHY DO SOME SHINE LIKE A BEACON OF LIGHT TO SHOW THE WAY TO THE PATH THAT IS RIGHT? WHY ASK WHEN IN YOUR HEART YOU KNOW IT IS TRUE THAT JESUS CHRIST DID DIE FOR YOU?
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LIFE
LIVING CAN BE HARD AND SO TOUGH THERE WILL BE TIMES WHEN YOU HAD ENOUGH. SOMETIMES YOUR WISH IS TO JUST RUN AWAY BUT SOMETHING IN YOUR HEART MAKES YOU STAY. SO WHETHER YOU ARE UP OR DOWN OR IN ONE SPOT JUST SPINNING ROUND WHEN TIMES COME YOU FEEL INSIDE YOU’RE DYING JUST LOOK TO THE LIGHT OF PURE LOVE THAT’S SHINNING. IT SHINES FOR YOU AND IT SHINES FOR ME ITS SHINING LIGHT CAN SET US FREE.
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REJECTION BEING A REJECT TOLD IT KNEW IT BELIEVED IT WAS IT LIVED IT STUFF IT NOT IT? CHANGE IT BEATING IT OVERCOME IT WOW! NOT IT!
REJECT’S BED
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GO LOOK IN CORNERS GO LOOK IN CORNERS COLD AND DARK WHERE WOLVES CLOSE IN AND MAD DOGS BARK. JUST IMAGINE HOW IT FEELS IN THAT PLACE THE BROKENNESS THAT STOPS SOMEONE LOOKING YOU IN THE FACE. TO KNOW THE PAINS THAT MAKE THEM NOT KNOW YOU BUT BELIEVE ME THEY KNOW WHO YOU ARE FROM YOUR SHOE. FOR THE LOAD THEY CARRY KEEPS THEM BENT DOWN IT’S NO SURPRISE THEIR GAZE IS ALWAYS TO THE GROUND. IGNORE THE DIRT AND PUT ASIDE THE SMELL FORGIVE THEM WHEN TO YOU THEY SAY JUST “GO TO HELL.” TRY TO GREET THEM LIKE A LONG LOST MATE TO SEE YOU AS A FRIEND IS GREAT.
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ASK IF THEY WOULD LIKE SOME FOOD OR DRINK DON’T SAY GET A JOB OR YOU REALLY STINK. FOR TOMORROW IT MAY BE YOU SITTING THERE THEN HOW DO YOU THINK YOU’D FEEL IF I SAID TO YOU, “GET A LIFE. I JUST DON’T CARE.” SO PUT ANY FEARS YOU HAVE ASIDE TO LOOK AT THE PERSON THEY HAVE HIDDEN INSIDE. FOR WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT TO START TO CLIMB OUT OF THAT HOLE, REACH OUT YOUR HAND TO THEM AND HELP THEM REACH THEIR GOAL. THEN JUST WAIT AND SEE, THEY MAY TURN OUT LIKE ME!
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BARGAIN HUNT
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LET US ALL GIVE THANKS LET US ALL GIVE THANKS FOR WHAT HE’S DONE FOR YOU AND ME TO GIVE HIS ONLY SON TO SET US FREE. OH HOW THE ANGELS IN HEAVEN MUST HAVE WEPT WHEN HE GAVE HIS LIFE TO PAY OUR DEBT. SO LET US ALL IN SONGS AND PRAYER PRAISE THE ONLY ONE WHO DOES CARE. WHO IN OUR DARKNESS HOLDS OUT HIS LIGHT THEN LEADS US BACK BY HIS GRACE.
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MY LOVE FOR YOU MY LOVE FOR YOU IS SO PURE AND TRUE I WOULD GLADLY GIVE MY LIFE OVER TO YOU. THE FEELINGS THAT I HAVE INSIDE TO YOU I DON’T WISH TO HIDE. FOR IN MY HEART YOU HAVE STARTED A FIRE THAT I HOPE WITH TIME WILL ONLY GET HIGHER. EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY THAT I SEE YOU IS LIKE A DREAM THAT HAS COME TRUE. FOR YOU WOULD MAKE ME SUCH A HAPPY MAN WHEN YOU WALK WITH ME HAND IN HAND. TO BE BLESSED BY AN ANGEL’S KISS I KNOW WOULD BE SUCH BLISS. SO BELIEVE ME WHEN TO YOU I SAY THAT IN MY HEART YOU WILL ALWAYS STAY.
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DON’T DO IT
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EYE TO THE FUTURE
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IT WOULD BE SO EASY IT WOULD BE SO EASY TO SNUFF OUT THE LIGHT AND STEP BACK TO THE PLACE IN MY PAST WHERE I WAS LOST AND IN THE BLACK. BUT I HAVE FOUND A LOVE SO PURE AND STRONG THAT IS POWERFUL ENOUGH TO KEEP ME “JUST” HOLDING ON. SO IN THIS TIME WHEN I WISH TO BACKSLIDE I GRASP WITH BOTH HANDS AND HOLD TIGHT TO WHAT’S INSIDE. EVEN WHEN I FIND IT TOO HARD TO BEAR “AGAIN” AND “AGAIN” YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE. SO WHEN YOU SURROUND ME WITH FRIENDS WHO GIVE ME SUPPORT AND LOVE I JUST GIVE MY THANKS TO OUR LORD ABOVE. BUT! EVEN WHEN PEOPLE’S COMPASSION I FIND SO HARD TO TAKE FROM THIS NEW LIFE I THINK THAT I WOULD LIKE A BREAK. BUT MY PAST LIFE I KNOW IS GONE AND DONE BY THE LOVE OF A FATHER’S ONLY SON. SO I GIVE ALL MY THANKS TO OUR ONE TRUE GOD ABOVE FOR ALL OF YOUR UNENDING KINDNESS AND THANKLESS LOVE.
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Published by MyStoryUK Poems by Stephen 2006/07/08 (❨Charity Shop)❩ interview and photos SimonB design RodB the Spitalfields Crypt Trust www.sct.org.uk and the New Hanbury Project 020 7613 5636 3 Calvert Avenue London E2 7JP paper December 2008 online ISSUU November 2012 RecoveryChannelUK@gmail.com
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Feel free to share these heartwarming poems with your family and friends. For paper copies please contact Spitalfields Crypt Trust Janice Taylor 020 7613 5677 janice.taylor@sct.org.uk 116 - 118 Shoreditch High Street London E1 6JN.
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